It was the Third of May, 2009. It was the third day after I first heard the Call. Since that first time two days prior, I had resolved to take up the issue of the Call with my Lord in a later prayer period. But I had to wait for two days before He would bring it and discuss it with me in detail. He and I had many other things on our agenda, and the many prayer periods in between were filled with so many revelations of Himself, and affirmations of his love for me.
The time had finally come. It was 12:40pm, and I had just finished my lunch. This was going to be my thirteenth prayer period throughout this entire five-day retreat. My Lord made it clear to me that Teach and Preach meant primarily to Evangelize – to Catechize. By word and by music, my Lord desired that I be used to strengthen the worship life of the people I would come in contact with, the people I would serve, and to increase their knowledge of the Catholic Faith.
I recalled then that I had received a similar message in the past. I mentioned this to my Lord. And He said, “Yes, but you wouldn’t take it seriously, postponing it. You must act on it now. You’re not getting any younger.”
This, I was made to believe, was the kind of “priesthood” into which he was calling me then. It didn’t seem to be an ordained ministry. It was an anointing, yes, but unto service and not unto ministry. Then the Lord revealed to me a vision of how His plan for me would unfold. It was a powerful vision, the details of which I am not wont to describe in detail for now. I knew then, as I knew now, that I had to build my life in teaching and training, in music and worship. Everything that I will be doing should build to the realization of God’s plan for me.
The many prayer periods that followed, until the end of my retreat, were opportunities to strengthen my relationship and my discourses with Him. We had many moments then, till now, where the Plan He has for my life would be discussed, enriched by many visions and affirmations.
I ended that retreat with two very important graces: The grace of my purpose, plan, my Call; and the grace of growing accustomed to my Lord’s voice. Today, more than two years after that retreat, I still recall the prayer periods. I still recall God’s plan. Most definitely, I still recall His Voice. And even in my present prayer life, I would know if the one who speaks in prayer is God or some other.
This is the plan that I am acting on now. And my heart has become less restless, more rested, in the arms and heart of my God.
As to the state of life, that is one path that has taken a longer, much longer route. And that is a story for another time.